04 May 2011


Generally I am an optimistic and confident person, but one thing that has really got me down lately is when I am faced with bureaucracy and filling in forms. Because EVERYTHING that I consider to be of value and worth in my life - EVERYTHING I consider to be an achievement and a success - NONE OF IT seems to have any value at all in the eyes of bureaucracy and filling in forms. There is literally no place for any of it on the forms or in the phone conversations etc. It really makes me despair.

Of course my principle Achilles heel in all this is the concept of money. It seems to me to be one of the least interesting things in the world. My mind literally goes blank whenever I attempt to think about it. There are so many many more interesting things to focus on in life. How does anybody find the motivation to sacrifice so much of their life pursuing anything as dull as money? It is a genuine mystery to me.

06 March 2011


RE this video DOCUMENTED incident of mine from THURSDAY 3rd MAR 2011


some knobhead over on a discussion thread I started



QUOTE digitalspy forum member skp20040;48534586 ....

"Exactly, what does it mean, are you really interested in old speakers or was it to see the reaction ?

Speakers are located usually up high , it would look odd to see a lone person filiming fixtures at height in a station for no reason and without prior consent.

Also if old speakers were a passion of yours I would have expected to see mention in at least one of your posts on the forum, having checked there isnt one ?"
...... end his QUOTE


..... as I've already stated. I was photographing public speakers for a new creative idea that came to me just the night before and that I'm very excited about.

Up till then I'd had a lovely day walking and photographing other speakers systems in the steet all the way from Hackney to Kings Cross.

I'd already taken very overt pics INSIDE ANGEL TUBE, of their flush ceiling mounted speakers WITH ZERO INTERFERENCE.

I was having a lovely and productive and fulfilling day.

I had NO preconceived idea to get into confrontation. I also did not want my enjoyable day taking photos unnecessarily interrupted.

There is simply NO excuse for the CSO's absurd pettiness.

Initially I even ignored them. I heard them behind me saying "hello" "excuse me" and I smiled and carried on photographing the old public street located loudspeakers.

Then I heard them ask something like: do I work for National Rail or whatever it's called? I replied "No" and I carried on photographing. Why wouldn't why? I wasn't do anything wrong?

And THEN they insisted on stopping me, and it was at that moment I had the foresight to turn the video on and document most of the ongoing situation.

Immediately afterwards I walked directly in ST Pancras international station just over the road and continued with my photography uninterrupted. I also then walked to Warren st tube and was not interrupted while overtly photographing ALL their street located speakers.

THEN i walked around inside a big shop, PC world, and overtly took loads more fab pics for my project, with nobody disruputing me. AND DO YOU KNOW WHY NOBODY STOPPED ME? BECAUSE IT"S THE SODDING 21ST CENTURY plus I'M NOT DOING ANYTHING WRONG.

It's also kind of ironic. As people go on and on about getting away from our screens and going outdoors.

AND YOU KNOW WHAT? I ENJOY DOING BOTH. LOTS. So just let me get on with it please. No petty nonsense thank you very much.

plus as I've also already stated: MY PARENTS BROUGHT ME UP TO QUESTION EVERYTHING :)

Meanwhile, on the general topic of privatised public space and our COMMONS etc .... you might be interested in my opinion piece from last Sunday, 27 Feb, in free local the Hackney Citizen. I'm dead pleased with it.


26 February 2011

Why I generally don't trust VIOLENT PROTESTS

I am not entirely opposed to violent protesting. I recognise it is sometimes necessary or useful. But I don't trust violent protest.

Firstly I don't trust it, simply because violence can be fun. It's fun to smash and burn stuff and throw things at the police etc. It's also romantic. It's very instantly gratifying.

Violent protest is also a bio-chemical rush. A high. And similarly to when we're high on drugs it can all too often delude us into thinking and feeling that we are actually achieving something, when in truth we are not. We're just full to the brim with a chemically induced good feeling.

Similarly, and probably my main reason for not trusting violent protest, it is too easy to be led by violence. The rush of the crowd, the thrill of it all. It's too easy to get caught up in the wave. And therefore it's too easy to be manipulated, especially by agent provocateurs.

And the final reason that comes to mind is that, in my experience, far too many people automatically get their buttons pushed by authority figures or institutions that represent authority. Far too many people have unresolved issues from their pasts, usually with their parents (or whoever the principle adults were in their childhood) and therefore they all too quickly turn into irrational zombies who are no longer really reacting to the present situation at all.

Ultimately I guess I believe that violence is the easy option.

I believe that Non-violent protest requires more conscious and deliberate effort from everyone involved. Non-violence requires more originality and innovation, more strength and more determination.

Time and time again it is the state that shows itself to be addicted to violence and brutality. I believe we have to be better than that.

22 February 2011


... http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Transarmament ...

Transarmament (closely related to civilian-based defense) is the partial or total replacement of armed forces with the physical and social infrastructure to support nonviolent resistance.

Self Organised Learning

... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dk60sYrU2RU ...

16 January 2011


... AUDIO ... Alan Watts on conforming to society

... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KjSwsww5SfQ ...